it has taken a while to find a memory i cherish
i have been trying for years to find one happy moment in that orange room, or the green room, or the yellow kitchen, or the pink & yellow bathroom
or the blue bathroom upstairs that was yours & yours alone
my room was wooden ... the ceilings were angled ... it was a good place for music
i remember you sitting on the orange & white couch in the room with one whole wall of cork & a panoramic view of a private golf course & a rose bush (these we never saw because the curtains never opened)
i remember the whole family watching this concert
i remember you had tissues in your hand from a box with some complimentary pattern on it that adequately accompanied the encyclopedia set on the wood book shelf
you cried
i remember
i told amber & malia i had no good memories
i lied to them (again)
i have one & this is it
that was a good moment
& this is an amazing song
i miss you momma
erik
